I get these waves of emotion and I'm fine one minute and just so sad and lonely the next. I hold back tears. Days are so hard. Evenings are better when Chuck is here. I'm just going through the motions of my daily life. I hardly do any chores. I feel like I should throw myself into a project but I have no motivation or desire to do so. My BGs are not improving. I don't know if its the weight gain, bad insulin, depression, or something else. I invited my sister to come visit and go camping with us sometime, but she has no vehicle at the moment and isn't sure how she'd get here. I want to leave the house but I have nowhere to go. We are going camping this weekend, and I cannot wait. Spending some time in the woods will do me some good.

11:25 A.M. - 07.28.20